So it turns out that trying to write my first blog post after having a baby is quite an intimidating proposition. So much has happened in the past eight months… where do I start? How much do people want to hear? How much am I even comfortable sharing? It’s strange, I’ve never had any issue with sharing my life relatively openly, but that changed quite a bit once I fell pregnant. It felt like something I wanted to keep quieter about (for reasons that I still don’t fully understand). And it felt weird sharing parts of my life on here, knowing there was this life-altering thing happening that I wasn’t talking about. Nekminit, months go by, I haven’t written a blog post, have barely posted on Facebook or Instagram, and you still haven’t met my littlest love!
So, that’s what today is about. There’s plenty of time in the future to get back in the Lazy Girl Fitness groove, with added mama and me workouts, pregnancy recommendations and the like. Today I’m just going to introduce you to Alfie, the littlest love of my life.
It’s so crazy to think that this is the human I was growing inside of me for all that time. I loved being pregnant, but the whole baby idea was still so abstract that I had no comprehension of what it meant to have a baby of my very own (to keep!). It’s funny though, now I know him in the outside world, I recognise Alfie from when he was inside me. He still hiccups often, and for long stretches of time. He’s very busy, crawling about like a maniac and getting into pretty much everything that he shouldn’t. And he’s not afraid to let you know (in no uncertain terms) how he is feeling. I didn’t even get a start in the looks department. He’s got his dad’s big brown eyes, dark hair and (thank god) he’s avoided my skin tone. He does appear to have some decent sized quads on him though, so I’m claiming those.
Motherhood, for me, has been life-changing. Beautiful. Hard. Rewarding. Lonely. Joyous. Hilarious. All-consuming. It’s a journey of self-discovery that I’ll be on for the rest of my life. Above all, it’s an incredibly privilege that I am so so grateful for. I really feel like I’ve found a purpose deeper than I’ve ever had before, and I know that I’m incredibly lucky to spend my days with him, watching as he learns and discovers new things. There have been some hard times too of course… we went through a really rough period with sleep that left me dealing with levels of anxiety that I hadn’t faced in many years. And there’s been the physical healing that I hadn’t factored in either. I naively thought that I’d be back in the gym within weeks of giving birth, and let me tell you, that most definitely has not been the case. I’ve had quite a few sessions with a women’s health physio, stopped and started Pilates a number of times, done many a 7-minute workout in my living room, walked a lot, had to stop walking so much… it certainly hasn’t been a linear journey, and I have a new appreciation for all the mums I’ve trained over the years, simply for showing up!! I do feel like I’ve finally found a bit of a groove though, and I’m excited to carve out more time for myself, to move my body, and to share the journey with you guys.
If you have any questions about my pregnancy/birth/post-natal experiences, or any topics you’d like me to address, shoot me an email or comment below, and I’ll do my very best for you.
Thanks for having me back in your life!
ps Yes, there’s bound to be more ‘mum-friendly’ content coming at you, but Lazy Girl Fitness still is, first and foremost, committed to sharing workouts, tips and recipes to help you live your fittest, healthiest and most balanced life, whatever stage you’re at.